I was standing in the kitchen, facing my husband, near tears.
I felt so horrible; I constantly texted him and bothered him at work, just to vent. And the minute he got home from work, I let him have it.
I didn’t want to.
But I did it anyway.
I unleashed all my anger and frustration onto this man. Who literally just spent the entire day at work, working his butt off ~ to support this crazy woman and all this chaos.
Because he loved us.
He didn’t deserve to come home to all of THIS.
And yet, I couldn’t stop myself. I let it all out.
I was in a panic! I didn’t know if I could do this!! 😩
I liked structure and routine. Easing into my days with a cup of coffee, and then knocking it out of the park!!
As I described my day, and all my troubles, my voice took on that shrillness I always get when I’m upset or excited. Like how I’d imagine the little old lady from Hansel and Gretel sounds.
I was a go-getter, with a long list of things to get done!! My biggest goal was to start a money-making blog.
He wanted me to make some money from home, after all. Help out the family.
Ha! THAT ain’t happening.
All of this crazy nonsense was absolutely driving me insane!!
I couldn’t even get them out the door! 🤣😂 I’d get one boy dressed, and start working on the next, only to find the one I just got dressed entirely stripped down! Boots off, gloves down the stairs, coat in the living room.
Can you even imagine!!
And he just stood there quietly, listening to it all. Nodding his head and looking at me with loving, understanding eyes.
I couldn’t pee alone!! I couldn’t shower until he came home!!
Supper was NEVER on time.
He just nodded again and quietly shrugged his shoulders. Like, “Yeah, well. What are you gonna do?”
And the house!! Let me tell you about the house!
I like things nice and tidy. Clean, organized. Sanitized!
The house was an utter disaster.
My eyes welled up with tears again. Because I really really do like a clean house.
All I did all day long was take care of crying babies. Literally. They.never.stopped.crying.
Feed them. Changed their diapers. And tried to keep them entertained.
I thought it’d get easier, as they got older. But it didn’t. It only got harder.
They could crawl and walk! And they got into everything, creating one disaster after another.
A brand new FAMILY SIZED Honey Nut Cheerios box. Dumped. All over the carpet.
Corn starch. All over the floor.
And the 3-year-old had just learned how to fight. An easy way to keep his toddler brothers at bay.
Oh my gosh. The days were long. I was exhausted. I went from one fire to the next, constantly. All day long.
And I really, really just wanted a little time to myself! Maybe pee a moment? Complete a sentence?
Forget the sentence! I’d love to be able finish my thought without being interrupted!!
Maybe drink a hot cup of coffee. Have a nice meal?!?
Is that too much to ask for? IS IT???
I couldn’t even manage my day around me. How in the world was I going to be able to make any money from home?!? 😩😩😩
My husband patiently waited, to see if I had any more.
I just stood there quietly. Spent. Fighting back the tears and feeling utterly hopeless.
“Well, honey,” he said calmly. “You used to run a daycare. Set yourself up like a daycare.” He shrugged.
I just looked at him.
Like he was the most intelligent man I had ever laid eyes on.
Of course!!!
Like a daycare!!
Now why didn’t I think of that?!? 🤣😂
Oh my gosh momma!! That was all it took! I was so excited!
I started the very next morning.
I DID used to run a daycare. And I worked as a para in the preschool classroom.
So, I knew how to use transition moments and establish routines. I knew the importance of rituals, and how to chunk down my day. I knew how to create mini routines.
And how to keep it all fun and educational – and flowing for my kids!
I could do this!! 🙌🏻 🙌🏻
And that is exactly what I did.
And suddenly, I could pee again! 😆 Granted, sometimes I had a child on my lap while doing it, but it didn’t bother me at all. It was okay.
And I could think straight again! And my house got cleaned again, because I remembered how important it was to teach them how to play by themselves.
Dinners were on time, too. Because I suddenly remembered all of the fun things my boys could do while I cooked dinner – like cook themselves, with pots, pans, and ice cubes! They had a blast!
I used sensory bins, arts & crafts, and ample play time outside. We started our day cuddling and ended it with stories, kisses, and hugs. Lots of crazy little bedtime rituals that grew and changed as they did.
I LOVED STAYING HOME. 💕
So much so, that when the twins went to kindergarten, I still stayed home. 💕 Which turned out to be a good thing, because that’s when covid hit, and I suddenly found myself homeschooling.
I did it, though, momma. 🙌🏻 🙌🏻
I stayed home with three little guys, all two and under. It was pure chaos at first. But once I mastered my stay-at-home mom schedule, it was everything I always wanted it to be.
And now, I look back on those days and my eyes well up again.
Because I want them back. 🥹
My babies are growing up way too fast. I want them to slow down just a bit. Take it all in. Enjoy it.
Can you imagine, momma? Can you imagine your days at home with your kids just flying by?!? Having so much fun that you collapse into bed utterly, happily exhausted?
Sitting at your desk five years down the road, remembering these days, and smiling? Wanting them back?
You can.
You can have calm, fun days at home with your babies. Doing what you love.
Playing.
Cleaning. 😁
Teaching.
Starting an online business.
The sky is literally the limit.
When you are a stay at home mom, the world is full of possibilities.
No more midnight freak-out sessions.
No more crying yourself to sleep.
No more unleashing on your poor, unsuspecting husband.
You can finally have balance in your life.
Perfect harmony, between caring for your children, managing your home, and starting your own online business.
I did it. 😁 And you can do it, too!!
All it takes is a stay-at-home mom schedule that works for you.
Take control of your day momma!!
It’s so easy, with my customizable SAHM schedule template!
Choose the layout that works for you and make it your own! Change the fonts, colors, whatever!
Then print it out and fill it in.
And whala! Peace and order were there was chaos.
It’s time to focus on your own goals again momma.
Like launching that online business you’ve been dreaming about. 😉
You totally got this!!
